Samma Karuna – Yoga Teacher Training – Week 3
Today was hard.
My body is in pain. My mind is strained.
Tensions are high.
Week 3 of yoga camp has arrived (and passed). As I type this, I am in the middle of week 4.
My yogi friends and I have been through the ringer. Right now, two of my friends are in the hospital (in Thailand – eek). One is suffering from a molar that decided to show up at age 28. The other is suffering from a fever and aches brought on by who knows what. Two friends have highly inflamed fibromyalgia (a chronic disorder characterized by widespread musculoskeletal pain, fatigue, and tenderness in localized areas). One friend has a broken foot, and she is still going at it. Another yogi is a total badass and is growing a human inside her…as if her body isn’t going through enough, she is here doing ALL the yoga too. Everyone’s bodies are worn thin and sore. Even heartbreak is showing up.
When you get to the point where your body is failing you, mental toughness gets you through. When you have a bad day mentally, it all seems to fall apart…even in paradise.
I feel stupid saying I had a bad day when this is where life has me. I am trying to let myself off the hook a little and not put so much pressure on myself to go all out, 100% of the time. I thought that Sabbatical had relaxed my achiever-persister trait. Being back in an environment where I can have goal, learn, teach, and grow (aka, achieve) proves that it hasn’t diminished.
That’s okay. I’m learning balance.
If two months of yoga twice a day won’t teach me that, I really don’t know what will.
If you cannot do a pose today because your knee is shot, modify it. This doesn’t translate into quitting. This is listening to your body. This is acknowledging what is happening today, the circumstances, breathing, and choosing the middle ground.
Choosing the balance, not the extreme.
In yoga, you are constantly working on alignment: are your hips square to the front or side? Are your arms perpendicular to the floor? Are your feet parallel to the sides of the mat? Is your weight equally distributed between your feet? Namely, are you in balance?
The benefits of yoga far exceed what you do on the mat. The real application comes off the mat.
Life has been a bit up and down the last few years. I am incredibly blessed even through all circumstances. Yoga has brought stability and a place to go when I don’t know where to go.
Peace in the madness.
Calm when the universe brings storms.
And when you have a bad day, there is always tomorrow.
Mercies are new each morning.
Bring it, week 4!
The journey continues…